Musings of an Overworked Mom

This is a “post for the sake of having a post”, though I am sure I will ramble it into something. I have been sick and out of work for the past few days. I have deadlines tomorrow and so I have to make it into the office, so I am only taking half of my cough syrup dose so I can get up tomorrow.  It is very strong codeine which I save for my true emergencies where I am coughing my asthma cough all night and getting no sleep. I usually still cough but I don’t even realize it, so I am at least resting. But it makes me feel slightly hung over and on Monday my son missed his bus so I had to climb into the car and chase down the bus…I wondered if that would count as drunk driving. It was a sight to see because I was still in pajamas.

Anyway, I am loving this class but as usual I have no time to spend on it. I love web design but my full time job no longer has much of anything to do with web design. It is still an Information Technology position, with a company that is doing very well despite the economy. Knock on wood. So that means that we are busy, which is good but at the same time I am just getting further and further behind. My husband has a new job that has a lot of travel. Yet he doesn’t really want me to quit because he likes the security of a second income, which I can’t blame him about at all because he suffered 2 layoffs in 2 years and having the second income, and BENEFITS, was incredibly helpful. But we have no family in the area to help and I am feeling more and more squeezed between the full-time “day” job and the evening clients who I love but who get less and less of my attention. Because the kids have to come in here sometime and I make sure they do, even if the house is less than shiny. But I keep musing on how I would love to make my “home” business more of the focus in my life.